Crap

So its looks like I gained another 2 pounds back this week. I am not shocked, based on things I didn't do. The rain porevented exercise alot, but as far as food I really didn't do too bad until the weekend. Date night with dinner and marble slab (we should have shared) breakfast at Chickfial with Davis, and popcorn with the girls. I'm not as discouraged as I was a caouple weeks ago because I got quality time with the 4 most important people to me. I still have to learn how not to involve food with everything and that has been a challenge. Also, I am kinda getting tired of dieting. I keep telling myself my granola bars are like candy bars but that has worn off a bit. Also, Chrsitmas coming and Annalee's birthday right around the corner have some food challenges ahead. So, pray for endurance people cause right now...it's hard to want to not eat whatever I want. On a positive note, I had to buy a new belt because the other one would no longer hold my pants up. It's very clear that mjen over 30 should not attempt the sag (you know if you try) but I was encouraged by that fact.

Back on top

Well this past week was pretty uneventful until the weekend. As most of you know I am a big Florida fan and knew Saturday would be filled with temptations to eat whether we won and I needed victory food or if we lost and I need comforting food. As it turns out I would have needed a great deal of comfort based on the but kickin' Florida got. Anyway, to make the situation removed and take temptation away I decided to fast and pray when I was tempted to eat. God was so good to me in this because lets face it...some buffalo dip and chicken wings would have made me feel better. But only for a little while. My heart and body are really starting to see food differently. Last night at evening of prayer, I said no to dessert and didn't feel the urge to clean my son's plate of his pizza he didn't eat. The result this morning 222.2 and am back on track for weight loss on my 2.5 pounds a week. That means so far I have 16.3 pounds. Last night my friend Matt (Spivey) said man your losing weight. I was proud but really I should have said, no God's just helping to make me thin. I really do feel the Lord's hand in my body. In closing, I wanted to respond to a few things. Hope, my next reward is a CD and I have an afternoon at the movies next so thanks for the encouragement. Also, when I lose 50 pounds I am getting a Wii! Temptation still rises so keep praying for me and asking me how I am doing and if you see me about to eat something that hinders my cause...feel free to tackle me.
Scott Parks

A little discouragiing

Last week my mom was in town so I couldn't get up and write about my half pound loss which was a little frustrating but understandable. The past week was my birthday and apparently I was more loved this year because of the number of cakes I received..the enemy knows how to tempt! Well as I mentioned above this week my mom was in town for thanksgiving and really I just didn't eat well. I tried to exercise more to compensate for the crazy schedule but it did not work. I gained 2 pounds back this morning and although I was a little discouraged, I know it was my fault. I ate a good bit on thanksgiving, went to a football game and ate junk, and we ate out several times during the week and it just wasn't' good for me at all. On a different note, my pants feel loser and I still feel like I have lost weight. One of my friends sent me this weight loss tracker that has places where you reward yourself for weight loss with non food related items. MY problem is I keep thinking of restaurants to go to or really expensive things to add to my list. So I need some help! If you have any ideas about what things you may want to suggest that our cheep non edible foods then I would love some ideas. Well, I have three weeks before Christmas holidays and parties are starting to line up. Pray for this season of stress, food, and events that will tempt me as well as that this week I can get back down tot he losing that I started.

Weigh In Day and the Electronic Scale

Week 4 Day 1
This morning I woke up ready to weigh in after three weeks of dieting. I have been weighing myself each Monday morning to see what I truly lost since I have more liberty on the weekends. So I got up and got ready to get on the scale.My original weight was 338.5 so my goal was 328.5. The first time on the scale it said 330.4. After getting back on the scale it read 327.8. Now I thought for a moment, if I could just get off and on the scale and lose weight like this this will be easy! So i tired 2 more times getting 328 and 328.8. So I went with 328 not giving myself the lowest number but certainly not the highest either. Which means over the last 3 weeks I have lost 10.5 pounds. I don't really feel the lose completely but I know with consistency, effort, and prayer this is only the beginning. I really want to honor the Lord for His service with my body. I feel this can be done with a healthier me and that keeps me motivated throughout this process. So Keep praying and thanks for the encouragement.
Scott Parks

The quest

For most of my life I have been overweight. It has created a great deal of problems from self value to sin that has so easily entangled. I have been made fun of and loved for my size. I have used it usefully in sports and been hindered by it in life. I have made several failed attempts to lose weight but never succeeded due to lack of care, initiative, and overall laziness. I have been criticized by those who love me and mocked by strangers. Close friends have never said a word but accepted me for who I am. But the reality of all of this is I am a slave. I have been a salve to food for a very long time. From my parents divorce and grandfather's death, I have used food as a crutch to hold onto when things were going bad as well as when things have been going good. It has crippled my walk with the Lord because the blessing of food has never been something I could hold onto because I made it my biggest idol. I have fought these words for along time and only now despite knowing this for quite sometime am ready to repent of my sin and turn to the only one who can save me from this sin. I know this will not be easy for me and am seeking great accountability to accomplish this goal. My goal is to lose 100 pounds by May of 2010. The great news is I have already lost 7 that I know of and maybe more when I weigh in on Monday. I started this blog for me to write my feelings and emotions down to document my personal struggle so I could see the Lord's faithfulness throughout this season. It is good to have a loving Father who loves you as you are, but I can not serve my loving Father the greatest remaining how I am! Please pray:
1. That I would be faithful with the little things. (refraining, restraining, and not getting second helpings!)
2. For a clear understanding of why I do what I do around food.
3. That I would pray when I feel temptation and God would provide the way out like he promises!
4. That in the process, I would not quit!

Thanks for being a part of this journey with me.
Scott Parks