For most of my life I have been overweight. It has created a great deal of problems from self value to sin that has so easily entangled. I have been made fun of and loved for my size. I have used it usefully in sports and been hindered by it in life. I have made several failed attempts to lose weight but never succeeded due to lack of care, initiative, and overall laziness. I have been criticized by those who love me and mocked by strangers. Close friends have never said a word but accepted me for who I am. But the reality of all of this is I am a slave. I have been a salve to food for a very long time. From my parents divorce and grandfather's death, I have used food as a crutch to hold onto when things were going bad as well as when things have been going good. It has crippled my walk with the Lord because the blessing of food has never been something I could hold onto because I made it my biggest idol. I have fought these words for along time and only now despite knowing this for quite sometime am ready to repent of my sin and turn to the only one who can save me from this sin. I know this will not be easy for me and am seeking great accountability to accomplish this goal. My goal is to lose 100 pounds by May of 2010. The great news is I have already lost 7 that I know of and maybe more when I weigh in on Monday. I started this blog for me to write my feelings and emotions down to document my personal struggle so I could see the Lord's faithfulness throughout this season. It is good to have a loving Father who loves you as you are, but I can not serve my loving Father the greatest remaining how I am! Please pray:
1. That I would be faithful with the little things. (refraining, restraining, and not getting second helpings!)
2. For a clear understanding of why I do what I do around food.
3. That I would pray when I feel temptation and God would provide the way out like he promises!
4. That in the process, I would not quit!
Thanks for being a part of this journey with me.
Scott Parks
How great Scott! I will pray for your journey and that the Lord will both sustain you and bless you!
ReplyDeleteScott....I am excited about watching the Lord work in your life as you begin this journey...You will do great...He will walk you through each day and each temptation:) I will be praying!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your vulnerability. As with all of our "idols" and struggles, keeping them in the dark does not bring forth healing and redemption. Sounds like you are really trusting that God will strengthen your frame as become honest with yourself, him and us. I'm proud of you for being real. Thanks friend.
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Amy
Way to go, scott! I hope (and pray) you will be a big loser! Love you and Annie and the girls!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing Scott. This is what the Christian life is truly about- being honest with one another about our deepest struggles and walking together through them. We were not made to walk alone. I will most definitly be praying for you through this journey!
ReplyDeleteScott, I am so encouraged by this blog. Thank you for being obedient to lay your sin before the Father and trust Him to sustain you through this journey. I will be a faithful blog follower bc it has really motivated me to consider the idol(s) in my life and lay them before the Lord too. I will pray for you as often as I read this and want you to know that God has already begun a work in you through this weight loss- I pray it too will remain an act of obedience and not a "law to keep". Much love my fellow-coworker!
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